Lookie Lookie, Who Just Decided to Write Again?

Yup, it's me. The one me. Idyani. Yup, I'm writing. It's terrible, but I'm writing.
I bet no one reads my blog anymore..it's dead for sure. Lot of things happen..things come and go, the only reason that made me write is because, I got nothing else to do. Definitely ZERO.
I moved to another company in Jalan Ampang, OSK Investment Bank. To my surprise, I met my ex-unimate, Shima. She's in IT Dept, well i'm in IT too but we specialise more on this one trading web we have to maintain. I just started yesterday but everything here seems really nice. Nobody brags about something, no petty ergonomic issues, no eyes being watchful of me. Just like one of my new officemate said, total freedom. Nobody cares what you do, as long as you finish your work on time..still, you maintain a healthy relationship with your colleagues. Well at least it is so far. Everyone is nice around here, can't say friendly, but super nice. A totally different environment from EM, which everything is on your own, read this, read that, but even the thing they provided is not complete.woops. There goes my mouth.hahaha.
Well, that's it for now.haha.

After a Loooooong Pause..Here is What I Call Life

Guys, i have so abandoned my blog.
If you were a breathing creature, or if you are a robotic organism that could speak the language of human..i could almost swear that you would hated me for not updating.
I'm sorry, ever since the training in PJ ended life has been so boring..
You could say i have lost my motivation on things i've always knew i love.
There's nothing in life that seems that interesting as before.
Except for the fact that I am now enganged to Azim Fahmi in Facebook.LOL.
Yes, my love life has bloom again, and this time around, I pray hard, ya Allah..
That he would soon be someone I would call..my husband.
You can ask mimie how much I wanted to get married..padahal gaji pertama dh melayang tah ape jd.
Life.Did I tell you how much I hated working in Exxon and living in KL?
Yes.I do.Life has never made me felt anymore lonelier than this.
I got cut off from almost everything precious to me..especially JWorld.
It's like a miracle for me to even know that MJ has passed on.
Because he inspired me so much in his songs..very much less in the real life he lived.
So the ONLY things and people that kept me breathing until today are..my family, Azim Fahmi, my laptop and friends..well, friends seem to be so far away but I know some of them still care.
I went for that F41 Pegawai IT interview last Wednesday.it was awful.I was soo sure that I failed?hahahahha.
I gotta rush people..I am now not having any Internet connection at my new artificial home, Sentul.
I gotta find a new place to live with better housemates.
Do reahc me if you've seen any advert about renting houses at affordable price.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.please keep me sane.
Take care!

Makna Rasa

Bila tersedar, aku mencinta..
Tapi Tuhan, tunjukkan apa maknanya..
Bila berdiri dengan seribu tanda tanya..
Diakah untuk aku?
Sisa dosa haruskah lupa?
Kosong jiwa, mencari cebis harapan..
Sedikit tidak kau pandang ke sini..
Aku sakit, aku jerit..
Hanya aku yang tahu..
Tuhan, selamatkan aku..
Aku tidak mahu hanyut lagi..
Dalam arus nafsu manusia jahil..
Hidup ini, berikan makna..
Agar aku bisa terbang semula..

1,2,3,4

tomorrow's the last day. i will then have to adjust myself to my working schedule.
BIG sigh.
i love you, all of you.
this MV is damned cute.
i need a husband ASAP.
hahaha.
batch 10, do not let our guards down.
keep the spirit alive, wherever you guys are going to work at.
please don't forget me.
AWW MAN!!!

The First Time a Presentation Made Me Feel Happy and Proud of Myself

Despite whatever that has been going on in Malaysian political scene, i am happy today.
and this is monday.it's rare to be this happy on a monday.cuz u know how people always have monday blues.
we snapped a lot of pictures.well, i did.cuz i wanted to balas dendam for the time i had to miss taking pix with nurul on the day she had to leave us.
we were really nervous.andrew, me, azim, hafis and julia.
everybody kept telling us how sharon questioned everything about the roleplay script.
but when we did our presentation, we had sharon smiling upon us.
she was smiling, and i could see how happy she was.
and i was convinced that she was truly happy with our presentation when she said
"you've blown me guys, really good job!"
my response to her was only "thank you!"
i was so happy that no words can describe or thank sharon enough for flattering us like that.
it's not easy to impress an assertive person.
but we did it guys, WE DID IT AS A TEAM!
oh man, i have to really thank you God, for letting me meet these people.
i will bring this spirit, the one that you guys have given me to just anywhere i go.
and hope that it'll work its magic.
i wish ALL 24 of us could work in the same place.and we will surely rock the hell out of that company with this spirit in us.
i love you guys.seriously.

Aqiqah untuk Damia

Silalah lawat Facebook utk gambar2 aqiqah ye.
Malas nk upload blogger lembab.hahaha.

Added Difficulty in Finding a Husband

I was walking with Dila and Ina to the LRT station when it suddenly occurred to me.
If i was ever to find a husband, he will have to quit smoking..or does not smoke at all.
not that i am that anti-smokers or any of that kind..but i just find it's cute for a guy who chooses not to be like any other guys and start smoking just because someone persuaded them to.
but by having to say this..i am almost getting myself to zero possibility of getting a man who doesn't smoke.even the one guy who i think looks cute and doesn't seem like the type to smoke smokes the cigarette. with this i'm officially someone who will never get married.hahaha.

adoi..

i got broken-hearted la today.

why la i should have never liked him that much la.
tuhan, please lemme feel nothing again.